Things are fine ... thinking too much lately as always. Nothing big... just said I loved him earlier today because he had a shitty morning and he hasn't said it back. But did send me smiles and a =-* so. Reading too much into shit, for sure. He's hungover, tired, hurting and busted his prop on his boat. I know I'm being rediculous and felt so after he wrote back, joking I hope, that I needed to chillax. Gah.
I'm here for 4 more days and am freaking out about that. Holy shit. My life is going to be COMPLETELY different exactly one week from now.
I'm trying hard not to have any expectations about all of this... trying to stay chill and keep my head above water. But it's impossible to when so much is up in the air. I literaly can't handle another thing.
He asked me if I was nervous or excited this a.m. I'm both. I'm everything but mostly am excited to ge this chapter of my life started.
I so hope he's in it.
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Things are fine. We chatted on/off through the day... called and had a great convo. as always. this was about the scientific part of religion and death... i said, this is getting grim... and we need to change the subject and he was like we talk about everything under the sun... talked for nearly 25 min this time... and got a nice pic at 345.
Talked about how hard it would be to leave Bella and he agreed... about me being stressed... and everything. Great convo I think.
I have no idea what will happen between us but I'm excited and hopeful.
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