Can't sleep ... it's 5 a.m. There is so much on my mind right now. I'm fucking stressed to no end -- hubby and I can see no better for us at this point... had a great convo with my friend Dor. last night -- I need to get my head clear and the only way I can do it is by talking to him. This is what I want to say:
I've been tossing/turning for the past 2 hours and I've gotta talk to you ... I'm hoping you are okay -- talking to you daily, I know things have been sucky for you at work, but lately I can't help but wonder if us texting/talking is too much of a distraction for you. I like my life better having you in it, and I hope you feel the same but something is off and I can't put my finger on it, or tell if it's just me. I really need to know though, if I'm just being weird or my intuition is right about that. I meant it when I said I loved ... I do. You are very important to me, and I care a lot about you and I don't want to lose you even as a friend, but I also don't want you stay if you don't want to and are just afraid to hurt me....
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