1.9.13 texts from 2 days to today. It's done. Now to begin again.

Previous texts were about normal shit like him/me… then the anticipated meeting to NOTHING.  This is how it went down.  Last phone call was on 1.2.13.  Last text today by me on 1.9.13.  His decision.  This sucks.

This will likely be the last time I’ll text u which makes me sad but the way you want it. Agreed it’s the way it shold be. Thank you for being in my life last year. Your presence no matter how small to you was huge to me. I will never forget you, meant all the good I said, will miss you so much. Your memory will always be in my heart.  Take good care of yourself.

Ill miss you too, truly.

I wish we didn’t have to say goodbye. But I know it’s what you want

It’s not goodbye.

That’s what it sounds lke.  How can we miss eachother if it’s not goodbye.

Hell I dunno.

So if no goodbye, what are you saying

See you around I guess.

That sucks just the same.  I guess there it is. And just like that. One day and you decide we won’t talk much anymore. Wish I had had some say since it directly affects me.  And geez I really liked talking to you through the day. Got me through it with smiles. Whatever about the pics and stuff. Its you that I will miss.

It wasn’t a one day decision. It sucks for me too but necessary. I’m sorry.

Don’t forget me please.

I wont.

Me neither. I hate this.

It sucks to just stop talking for both of us. And we’re gonna miss eachother why can’t we just try the friendship thing and nothing else.  I don’t like losing friends who mean a lot to me. Or is nothing what you want…

HEARD NOTHING BACK.

No response necessary.  Un know what is best for you and I will respect that.  This sucks and the adjustment will be difficult.  Take good care.

at 10;55 a.m he wrote back:

i'm not gonna disappear....

I feel like you are. is this the only way to make me feel less distracting to you? I don't like missing you.

I don't know... I gotta try something... Unfortunately.

Suck factor 1000000000. Can't we think of anothe rway? I don't like this.

I'm trying

Trying to think of another way?

But veiled references and comments on fb don't help
I'm sorry I guess isn't enough.  I don't know what else to do.

This is it then... just stop talking?
And it's what you want?

Haven't u ever had to do something you didn't want to do because it's the right thing?  Trying to do the right thing here.

Yup and yes. but this time it sucks bec u mean a lot to me. I know u have to. But I don't like it and I don't wanna get used to this.

You seem to think its a decision that I made easy...

12:32 PM Not at all. I know this was hard for you and that makes me sadder. I don't wanna miss you.  And I don't want you not in my life.   Is it something we can figure out or is ur mind set?

NOTHING BACK...

** I don't think I'll hear anything.   I won't text today.  He needs to be left alone and I need to heal.

I didn't hear anythign back and I actually texted him at 2 saying that his presence was missed ... this was on 1.10.13.  And nothing back again...

I'm good.  I really am.  I'll never text him again and have deleted it all.