it's been a whirlwind month -- i don't even know where any of it left off -- we've been babystepping back to a friendship that i have no idea what it is... he apologized for how he told me he had set a date -- it wasn't even the content of it that i was upset about. it was how he said it. i know he didn't mean to hurt me and i believe it.
so the past 3 weeks have been normal texting as always - with one difference - no pix from him. he says it's becaause he can't. and on the phone the other day he said he ws proving me wrong because i said i'd give him 3 weeks before he'd start again... but still nothing.
there's a part of me that thinks he found a sucker in me -- reeled me in, through out the ily phrase...his fun little fantasy became a bit reality when i got here and then *bam* he got caught ... but did he. Really? I wonder -- bec if I HAD GOTTEN CAUGHT, hubby wouldn't allow me to be friends with this guy on f/b anymore.
i do overthink things, but it's weird and makes no sense...
thoughts of most of my friends on this --
k - fuck him and go -- literally
lin - never speak to him again
d - stay away - he's a douchebage
lau- let it go - move on.
tra - fuck him and go -- should have listened to her
i'd love to meet up one more time with him. but i think it's insane to do it. insane to want to do it. he says i still matter to him... but his life is getting back to normal. whatever that is.
i need to learn to NOT TEXT HIM ANYMORE. again.
more later.
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