he chose to tell me he and the fiance set a wedding date through text last thursday. I couldn't breath i was so hurt. he knew for 17 days and didn't tell me and chose to tell me by text.
coming back from the cruise everythign seemed fine with us -- back to the way it was with pix and texts and all.. wanted to meet up the very week he was back. when we couldn't i said i was disappointed and he sent a full-body pic to make up for it... shit like that.
and he fucking knew. the whole time. then he tried the week after. and he knew the whole fucking time.
crushed. we've talked sporadically since. not by phone. life goes on i guess.
i've learned he was a drug to me and talking/texting was my fix .. same for him. he's been completely distant. joked a couple of times but distant now. why would i even want to communicate with someone furtehr who clearly has that little respect for me... a text?
he admitted to being a pussy and didn't want to hurt me. but i am. not because of what he said but how he said it... text. wtf.
i thought he was forever for me -- i thought he'd be in my lfie forever. but not to be.
he hasn't texted at all today. and that's okay. nothing i can do about it. but i won't ever text again.
I NEED TO HEAL.
i swear i thought he was forever.
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