Still trying to wrap my head around the fact this is done.  but still hanging on - he still calls at least 3x a week -- but  i'm always still texting... and i have to stop.

it's clear things are completely different.  and i hate it.

i have to let go. i have to get past it all and get strong but i don't know how to because i love him.

i texted him that personal life was ugly, at the end of our texting on monday. no response.  made me feel really awful.  not even a sorry...